Just isn't write.
One of the things I had hoped going to college would do would be to encourage or get me to write more. So far it hasn't really happened. By writing I mean production of fictional content. Completing class assignments has been difficult enough as I wonder if I have lost my creativity. Even this blog lacks when you compared it to what I pumped out previously. My crutch in the past was to use pain as a motivator for writing. Even when it was self induced through self harm. Now that I am not depressed nor am I cutting myself the creativity appears to have fled. Perhaps it never was really mean producing all that, perhaps it was from the demon attached to my back. I should be glad to be rid of it as I am content and happy however that does not fit or align with my desire of being a writer. Now it seems I was looking for an easy crutch or something to help but English Classes has not provided that. Perhaps I just need more time and effort. That I do not know.