Sunday, November 03, 2013

As one could see from reading the history of this blog I used to write a lot.  Perhaps a lot is not a good way to phrase that.  I used to unleash a flood of words and letters upon a blank canvas that is my monitor.  It was one of my ways of dealing with life and other things.  I think a part of me still associates writing with those darker times in my memory.  Making just blind writing difficult.  There are times that I try to write and I encounter a wall that blocks so much where I can't even come up with anything besides "I cannot come up with anything so I am going to keep repeating this sentence until something appears."  One can wish for sunlight during nighttime but all the wishing will not make it happen.  I wish I could simply write like I did when I was younger.  I know the writings are not that great but writing garbage is better than not writing at all.  However not being depressed is so much better than being able to write regardless of how frustrating it can be for class.